nervous breakdown

tell me why, you never gonna take the ride
don't know why, you never stay in sight
just wanna know what the hell is going on

what can I do to make you feel right?
what kinda fool if I make your cry?
give me a break, you'd better change your stupid ways
before I go away

time is right, I'm gonna get you playing high
it's alright, I'm gonna get you shining bright
really wanna know what the hell you're feelin now

I just wanna hold you tight,
I just wanna feel your sigh,
wanna be with you tonight,
so baby, don't let me down
I just wanna treat you right,
I just wanna see your eyes,
wanna kiss you through the night,
I know how to satisfy,
I know you want me tonight,
never show me what's inside,
you cause my nervous breakdown

you drive me crazy,
soon I will make you down

huff~

at last, I told him
wow, it feels like unchained the problems away
huf~~
hope it lasts forever, and not hurt me anymore
i sick of being hurt

aishiteru ~♥~

for you, who crushed my heart

what makes you so in hurry?
life is long enough to search the whole world and find your true soulmate
are you satisfied with your attitude, crushing every woman's heart?
are you proud with your record being the boyfriend of many girls?
are you proud with your status, a single man with 100 ex-girlfriends?
are you proud with all our attitude, all pains that you caused?
as you can see, many people are waiting for their love for a long time
they not harphazardly choose a girl to be their soulmate
not like you, make fun with girls
I hope someday, you'll have the karma
let's see....

my very ancient life

for me, every persons life like an ancient statue
they're fragile, unstable, and also flameable
they're fragile because they'll broken if something or someone dropped them down
they're unstable because they're standing on moving soil, it always moves and moves
they're flameable because when they stand near the fire, the fire will reach them and burn them

my life is ancient
no one has a life like me
like there's just one statue from each dig site
everything will die, like an ancient statue faded out from century because they're burned inside the soil

from now on, let's think that our life is ancient, it happened only once and once only,
so don't dare to end your life because of simple things
keep on living till God calls our name

Laurel Garden

When the glow turns to dark, just let the silhouettes give you a sign

Lead your heart into my Laurel garden

And if you're alone in the dark, don't let the sinister touches your mind

Feel the light is in you

Come to me, grab this hand, join me in silent, and you'll be safe

In the night side of Vatican, telling you a story of epic legend

I'll guide your heart into my Laurel garden

Take my hand, join me in silent, and you'll be safe

Perfect

I've tried to be so perfect, I've tried

Find the ending of my life, against you

Watch your moves, shades of your shadows

'Till I find the ending of my story

You've said, "Stop pretending to be perfect,

Go find your own life, without me"

But I couldn't, don't keep a distance from me

'Till I get my own story like yours

cloud's phylosophy

hmm,,
after taking a long time,,
thinking about clouds and my life,,
I think my life is the same thing as the Cloud

Clouds,,
it always be on the sky
wherever it's on the bad mood
either the good mood

It always moving,,
to somewhere where the wind blows to

It always be above of us,,
be beside us when we sad or happy

but,,

when a tornado, a great hailstorm and a big flood comes,,
the people always blame the clouds
blame the rain
blame the wind
and blame the hail
that the Cloud brings

on the other hand,,
the people always waiting for Clouds
when they comes to the dry seasons
waiting for the rain
and the Clouds
to protect them
from heat and sunshine


hmm,,
my life is as slightly same as the Cloud

They always blame me,,
when they comes to a disaster
but it isn't my fold


They always left me
but I'll wait for them

They always miss me
when I'm gone for too long

but,,
They'll ignore me
when I be beside them

They'll left me
when i found something new

They always wait for me
to cover all the mistakes that They made




so,,
why I'm still here?
why I still alive?

I want to be free
as the Clouds fly thorughout the sky

I want to be beside Them
as the Clouds be beside the sky

but,,
why I'm still here?
WHY???

the end

at the end
all will end alike
always same,
and never changed

at the end
i'll be the leftover
i'll be the junk
i'll be the shit

at the end
nothing would care for me
nothing would laugh for me
nothing would cry for me

at the end
i'll be alone
in the 2x2 soil
with all skulls beside me

at the end
i'll gonna be the forgotten
so why
im still standing here?

if you ask why
its because the love
the love that grew
and keeps immortal in my heart

thanks for you
for understanding me
for your love
and for your tears

once again, thanks
but i'll gonna end this journey
in a way
that you've never imagined before

thanks for everything
but at the end
it always ended the same
thanks, once again

Heart

you know,
deep in my heart
in the deepest heart level
i'm crying
crying so loud, making a flood of tears
flood of blood
and flood of sadnnes
but that's deep in my heart
the truth is
on surface, maybe many peoples think that i'm strong
i'm tough
i'm rigdig
i'm not crying
i'm not screaming
i'm not begging
i just standing here
waiting, and waiting
humans, born to the world alone
then they die alone
but in their lives, they need someone to help them
to show them
where the right way of life
to light their way
to cheer their live
to shine their faces
to clean their veins
from their sins
from their mistakes
i born as human
born alone, and die alone
but, same as the other human
i need someone
i need love
i need light
i need map
and everything that lead me through the stormy live
through the dessret of trials
through the sea of sins
i need you
and i realize
how hard i fought,
how though my defence
i always need you
but now,,
i haven't met you yet

Life

Sometimes good and evil are equally sweet, and they play together in a game called LIFE
If you take a life, do you know what you'll give? Odds are, you won't like what it is
If you come inside, things will not be the same when you return to the night
And if you think you've won, you never saw me change the game that we all been playing
But, if you must pretend, you'll meet your end
Arm yourself because no one else here will save you. The odds will betray you and I will replace you
You can't deny the prize, it may never fulfill you. It longs to kill you. Are you willing to die?
Life is gone with just a spin of the wheel
The coldest blood ruins through my veins. You know my name