Heart

you know,
deep in my heart
in the deepest heart level
i'm crying
crying so loud, making a flood of tears
flood of blood
and flood of sadnnes
but that's deep in my heart
the truth is
on surface, maybe many peoples think that i'm strong
i'm tough
i'm rigdig
i'm not crying
i'm not screaming
i'm not begging
i just standing here
waiting, and waiting
humans, born to the world alone
then they die alone
but in their lives, they need someone to help them
to show them
where the right way of life
to light their way
to cheer their live
to shine their faces
to clean their veins
from their sins
from their mistakes
i born as human
born alone, and die alone
but, same as the other human
i need someone
i need love
i need light
i need map
and everything that lead me through the stormy live
through the dessret of trials
through the sea of sins
i need you
and i realize
how hard i fought,
how though my defence
i always need you
but now,,
i haven't met you yet